UGH

I look bigger than ever. I went to the doctor yesterday and they said I weighed 132. Which is great considering I weighed 137 over the summer...but it's still not good. I want to weigh at least 125-120 by the summer...which of course is very doable...I just have a very hard time omitting. It's already almost the end of the 2nd week of 2013, I am proud to say I've been moving more than ever...I kinda slacked this week with the work outs but thankfully for the trains not working where I work, I got to walk .9 miles a day for everyday of the week. Yesterday, because I walked from the office to the clinic to Wendy's, I walked a total of 1.6 miles. I dont feel happy with how lazy I've been...and how out of shape I feel. But I do understand that I just can't jump from not being active to suddenly overtly active. I have to pace myself with the level that I can bring (though I need to push as far and as hard as I can and NOT BE LAZY), and from there increase everything. I know that I can do it. Also, I need to minimize my eating. If I can't record my calories since the databases do not have my foods in there, I need to (ALWAYS) control portions to foods only the size of my fist. That is all. Thank you